Hoy, tengo ganas de salir a la calle. Encontrarme en la esquina a una señora vendiendo quesadillas. Ir a un mercado y ver los colores. Tengo ganas de pasear por Reforma y terminar en el Zócalo. Se me antoja después ir a chacharear a Coyoacán, tal vez darme una vuelta por la Universidad. Seguro la noche empezará en un bar en la Condesa y terminará en casa de alguien que viva cerca.
Hoy tengo ganas de ver y escuchar la Ciudad; de probar sus sabores, de sentir sus olores. Hoy tengo ganas del DF.
The cultural shocks continue. It’s been a while since I arrived to this side of the world and my cultural background keeps giving me plenty of surprises. After several hours of listening to “Latino music” – from all sort of Latin-American countries and styles- I found out that the “telenovela” phenomenon is present in every single feature of our beings.
Recently I’ve been involved in a number of ups and downs that challenged my mental stability (not that I am clinical crazy yet); and I found out that some of those episodes have been directly affected by the Latino perception of the social environment. I am not sure that this is a good thing, so from now on, although I will never stop being a latina, I will try to Europeanize my behavior in certain aspects. How it will end, I have no idea.
I’ve been reading on the #wikileaks scandal raised at the end of last year (again). More than a whistle blowing attempt and a nice prosecution that gave the world something to gossip about, information in the new era just gained another battle. Whatever the impact on diplomacy and current politics, the information proved not to be secure anymore. Is it then time for real accountability of States to start? Is it the beginning of the understanding that information belongs to everyone?
Hopefully governments will start being a little bit more cautious in their actions and being more accountable to their citizens. Anyways I love reading on gossips of the entire world, it gives some spice to the still existing political scientist inside me!
My computer skills have been tested by the lack of network connection during the last week. Although I have been quite busy with friends and trying to finish all the pendent things I have in Switzerland, I have to admit that it is quite difficult to be offline for a while. It is worse when you rely on that single tool to do almost whatever job you need to finish.
One of the most difficult challenges is how to get my thesis done since I rely hundred percent on online documents and features to write it and get information. So far, let’s hope I can arrive to Sweden safely and start being connected to the world again.
ROAR btw, I’ve just realized I started a sort of diary to be posted on my blog. :S damn!
( 22 01 11)
Today I stayed at home. I was reflecting again. Meditation has become part of my daily understanding of myself. The understanding of the life I chose. I realized that becoming a humanitarian and deciding not to stand still in one place has repercussions in my inner development as a human being.
Although I am able to establish long lasting relationships based on networking attempts when it comes to relationships person to person I don’t know how to behave. I don’t know if in this process of continuous changing I lost the notion on how to be social for establishing friendships or at least a nice moment with others.
Am I becoming crazier? Probably. Sometimes I don’t know who I am and sometimes I can’t even stand being with myself. Is it part of growing up? Of establishing who you want to be? I thought I knew that after being a teenager; but again, I have no idea what’s going on.
At least, the good vibes keep being part of my daily approach to the new challenges life sets in front of me. So with nice spirit and trying to maintain my mind working in other issues rather than discovering my inner me, I have to start another day tomorrow.
Another cycle has ended. It seems that it was yesterday when I met my new NOHA family in Aix-en- Provence, finished my first semester in Uppsala, moved right away to Bochum, spent my summer in France and moved here to Geneva. It is amazing how much I’ve change in these months. I’ve experienced the best and the worst of myself, feeling the worst and the best of my moods.
Geneva has been an interesting place for me to know what I don’t want to be, what I want to do, and who I can be. Today, also in Geneva, I found again the nice vibes that were not present for some time – I have to thank my guy friends that helped me to understand how complicated sometimes we girls are and also my girl friends who tried to push me to their side (BTW it is not going to happen 
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So, for all the people that met me a couple of weeks after I arrived to Geneva and for all of you that listened and had to deal with all my unstable modes: Let me introduce myself again!
Good vibes to everyone and please fall in love every single day with the smallest and weirdest things life has to offer!
Peace!
Después de más de un año de estar fuera de mi país los fantasmas de la pertenencia me vuelven a invadir. Tal vez sea el hecho de estar en una oficina. Ahora en Ginebra y trabajando en los temas que me encantan y para Naciones Unidas, pero en una oficina al fin y al cabo. Siento un vacío grande. Hay mucha gente a mi alrededor pero nadie que realmente sepa de mí, quién soy, qué siento, cómo soy. Tengo ganas de correr de nuevo. Pero a dónde, no lo sé. No sé a dónde pertenezco y en dónde me siento bien. Quiero correr al terreno por un par de meses y regresar a un destino que, tal vez, no conozco todavía.
This will be a bilingual post
Es un post para todos aquellos que extraño o que han formado parte de mi vida de alguna forma
It is a post for those who have supported me and the ones that have offered me their friendship in a very little time
Hoy me siento medio depre
Feeling blue from time to time is not that bad
Solamente muestra que por más fuerte que aparentes ser, siempre puedes sentir muchas cosas al mismo tiempo
Today a lot of memories invaded my mind
Muchas aventuras increíbles con la gente más importante en mi vida
From the people I met recently or from over a year
Hasta todos aquellos que han estado presentes el mayor tiempo de mi vida
Today I missed you more than ever
Este día simplemente me hacen más falta que de costumbre
If they say that friends are the family you choose
También la familia que no escoges es tuya y la necesitas
When it comes to the times that you feel blue you realize that all the people you met whenever
Es super importante en todos los momentos
There are sometimes that you just need a hug and a time with a great friend
O el abrazo incambiable de tu mami y tu hermano
There are sometimes that you want to take a flight just to see that everything is alright
Y veces que deseas una larga cena o unas tortas ahogadas para compartir con los màs importantes
I know I have to stop worrying about lots of things like debts, money or where to live since everything will be solved sooner or later
O seguir pensando más en otras cosas encontrar un trabajo pronto
And start posting more on nice stuff about my life and the great experience I’ve had so far in Europe
Pero es casi imposible cuando hay cosas irrelevantes que se vuelven relevantes cuando estás sola por el mundo
But because of that, I write a Little about my worries here but no worries
Solo quiero que sepan que los extraño mucho y los adoro
And that you are the most important thing in my life
Que gracias a su apoyo y Buena vibra puedo seguir por acá
And that the fact that I will find you again somewhere in the world helps me to keep going
Bueno, basta de mala copas
Welcome good vibes!
En un futuro nos reencontraremos y espero que me manden fotitos o algo para saber cómo van
I hope that all of you guys are having an amazing time wherever you are
Les mando un graaaan beso y un graaan abrazo desde el otro lado del mundo
Receive my best and big hugs from France
No olviden de informar sus aventuras
Luv ya guys!!!
Besitos!!
And thnx again for being part of my life
Y por seguir estando presentes aunque no estén
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